wondering...

ever wonder how life can change 360 degree in just a split second? well, that sounds dramatic but it may happen in our life, sometimes.. never imagine that a tragedy, that i think is just a minor incident can turn me into someone that resemble a critically ill patient.. dont know what's wrong, no medical explanation so far.. i panicked when a specialist told me that my symptoms may indicate that i had a pneumonitis, but a CXR prove that i'm okay ( i must say, the doctor was quite reluctant to do CXR & i'm 100% sure he did it out of respect - after all, i did mentioned Mr A&E specialist!)

my daily activities was limited, fatigue dominate most of the time & i'm easily exhausted.. feeling like my joy was robbed in a cruel way.. a gruesome & tiring obstacle to face.. A test from God, a reminder that the adage "ingat 5 perkara sebelum 5 perkara" is true. i had to forget a trip to an island because of my condition, had to walk less and avoid any tiring situation or else, i'll be a dead man alone at the end of the day, taking MDI Salbutamol but symptoms not relieved and try any medicine that i think can cure me (of course self-medicated!), but to no avail.. a strange fact because all tests done by the doctor prove that i'm normal..   psychologically & medically, everything was fine and dandy but deep down, i'm suffering alone.. only God know the best.. So, to those out there, appreciate every single moment of your life.. I agree with "La Tahzan" - HIDUP INI TIDAK LEBIH DARI ROTI, AIR DAN BAYANGAN.. MAKA TIDAK PERLU BERSEDIH HATI JIKA SEMUA ITU ADA..

God bless..
XOXO...