haywire!

life was a bit messy but i love it because i'm not repeating the same routine everyday..   going  to HUSM,  course at my hometown, night shift  with lots of TDM cases and methadone jail after finishing my night shift were enough to declare that this is a week of chaos for me.. but, as haywire it could be, i'm enjoying every moment of it! frankly, as a carefree person, i love enforcement most because it had lots to offer in term of discovering new things everyday.. however, the 'court' thing was the stumbling block  that prevent me from pursuing a career as enforcement pharmacist.. studying cases and deal or act like real lawyers in the court was something beyond my capabilities.. and again, the fact that i still cant drive was another major obstacle! so, now i'm  okay with my current workplace.. since it's the main general hospital in my state, of course it had much more to offer than district hospitals or the 'klinik kesihatan'.. & i just secured a place at quarters  for maximum 5 years, so  no reason to switch workplace..  somebody used to ask me, why i still stick to the same hospitals where i started my career until now & here are my answers:1) being the main hospital, there was always continuous medical education from drug company itself, so that's the easiest way to update  knowledge without the need to study <3  2)although i was stationed at certain department, lunch break duty at outpatient department, night shift & pm shift that cover TDM and in patient and ,   weekend screening/methadone both at hospital &  jail spice up my life.. i mean, that gave varieties to my life, not confined to just tpn matter..  since i love TDM, being able to stay connected to TDM is something that i cherished most.  3) this is a place where new drugs was introduced , so my life wont revolve around the common paracetamol, diphenhydramine syrup, anti-diabetic or antihypertensives or all the cardiovascular drugs.. thus, i got to know Dabigatran and lots of new drugs - translated, there was always a door to learn.. life isnt too boring  4)quarters is the place i got to know the feeling of having  my own house - i still dont know where i want to reside, buying a house and then let it for rent isnt  a good idea( sayang nak bagi sewa kalau rumah baru tu tak pernah dirasmikan =) & if i bought a house and stay alone, it's scary - i'm not talking about ghost here but i'm talking about the escalating crime index nowadays! the excitement of buying everything for my house was  like the euphoric feeling  from the stimulant drugs & it was like living in  a dream.. i'm comfortable with the house and i think that was the biggest satisfaction that drive me up during the down episode.. nothing else matters!