best quote

like this - pemilik segalanya  adalah Allah.. jangan rasa dimiliki atau memiliki kerna apa yg disangkakan milik  kita hanyalah pinjaman dari Allah.. sampai masanya, ia harus dikembalikan..  note: blog thru phone xbest.. byk limitations & susah nak download picture

haywire!

life was a bit messy but i love it because i'm not repeating the same routine everyday..   going  to HUSM,  course at my hometown, night shift  with lots of TDM cases and methadone jail after finishing my night shift were enough to declare that this is a week of chaos for me.. but, as haywire it could be, i'm enjoying every moment of it! frankly, as a carefree person, i love enforcement most because it had lots to offer in term of discovering new things everyday.. however, the 'court' thing was the stumbling block  that prevent me from pursuing a career as enforcement pharmacist.. studying cases and deal or act like real lawyers in the court was something beyond my capabilities.. and again, the fact that i still cant drive was another major obstacle! so, now i'm  okay with my current workplace.. since it's the main general hospital in my state, of course it had much more to offer than district hospitals or the 'klinik kesihatan'.. & i just secured a place at quarters  for maximum 5 years, so  no reason to switch workplace..  somebody used to ask me, why i still stick to the same hospitals where i started my career until now & here are my answers:1) being the main hospital, there was always continuous medical education from drug company itself, so that's the easiest way to update  knowledge without the need to study <3  2)although i was stationed at certain department, lunch break duty at outpatient department, night shift & pm shift that cover TDM and in patient and ,   weekend screening/methadone both at hospital &  jail spice up my life.. i mean, that gave varieties to my life, not confined to just tpn matter..  since i love TDM, being able to stay connected to TDM is something that i cherished most.  3) this is a place where new drugs was introduced , so my life wont revolve around the common paracetamol, diphenhydramine syrup, anti-diabetic or antihypertensives or all the cardiovascular drugs.. thus, i got to know Dabigatran and lots of new drugs - translated, there was always a door to learn.. life isnt too boring  4)quarters is the place i got to know the feeling of having  my own house - i still dont know where i want to reside, buying a house and then let it for rent isnt  a good idea( sayang nak bagi sewa kalau rumah baru tu tak pernah dirasmikan =) & if i bought a house and stay alone, it's scary - i'm not talking about ghost here but i'm talking about the escalating crime index nowadays! the excitement of buying everything for my house was  like the euphoric feeling  from the stimulant drugs & it was like living in  a dream.. i'm comfortable with the house and i think that was the biggest satisfaction that drive me up during the down episode.. nothing else matters!

world of a pharmacist

my younger sister will follow my footstep in becoming a pharmacist... still long way to go, in 4 years of study, anything could happen.. let's leave the future to Allah.. we live in present, so i'll talk about today.. honestly, i'm the one that influence her to be a pharmacist.. i know that she's not into medic like i do- a hectic and stressful life and also  world of diseases, needle and blood are absolutely a no-no for her..  by becoming a pharmacist, at least we know diseases and its treatment, although we focus more on the latter or specifically, medicines!  dont have the right to diagnose is okay because what's the point of working if there's no job satisfaction at all?  doing something that we dislike or hate will be the biggest regret later on, so better script the life that we desire  right from the beginning..  true, we may not deal with death and life  of people everyday,  but by becoming a pharmacist, we care the patients in our own way..i'm  not going to talk about preventing  medication errors by correcting the dose,duration, frequency and so on (look simple, that small matter could prevent overdose/ death),  that are the basic part in life of a pharmacist!     what i want to highlight here is, with the knowledge as a pharmacist, we can make  a huge different in patients's life.. for example, during one of MTAC session (medication therapy adherence clinic),  i discover that a patient that  was fasting  skipped his medicines, that's why his blood pressure was high!  small thing like this, if not known, will lead to increase the dose of his antihypertensive drugs or  another drugs prescribed, which could lead to hypotension.. with lots of patients/ high workload with different  attitude or 'karenah', i'm sure the doctor wont have time to ask if the patient took his medicines or not..  similar case in asthma/COPD patients, most patients dont know the right  technique of using inhalers even after being counselled, so  by correcting their techniques, at least the medicines will work the way they intended to do. their symptoms wont relieved/controlled  with incorrect usage and that can waste governments' money too!  in term of toxicity, let's say paracetamol or panadol overdose, the result will determine whether  treatment with NAC ( antidote) is needed.. sometimes, doctors, especially new houseman dont know that the absorption of PCM was complete in 4hours, so there's no point of giving antidote if the level isnt toxic! that was linked to the way NAC work (mechanism of action).. in term of antibiotic, the right dose was determined according to their condition, and i'm sure only pharmacist know how to calculate the dose based on their level!

marriage dilemma =)

life isnt just about falling in love & live happily ever after..  our ultimate mission is to be the Khalifa of Allah in this momentary  world..  true, to get married is like building a mosque but the recipes of a blissful marriage were commitment, knowledges and a slip of fate/good luck in term of the right candidate.. when you dont have the right ingredients,  the blend of the mixture wont yield expected result.. the best thing to do  when this situation arise is to strive to be a better person and leave everything to Allah..  like a verse on al baqarah said : maybe you hate a thing, but it's good for you and vice versa..God know when is the right time so why must human, his slave and servant  questioned his  command? often, people around said bad things to those that doesnt even had a boyfriend, but what a boyfriend can do? bring on to date & let the satan clap their hand over their victory of bringing down muslim? and looking for a spouse isnt as simple as  ABC.. llike looking for clothes, we need to choose the one that suit us perfectly.. even if we love the colour&its design, if it was too loose or too  fit,  clearly it wasnt suitable for us or we can wear  it with heavy heart and discomfort! why opt for a discomfort when you can wait and look for another one.. doesnt mean that we are choosy, it's just that we want a solid marriage that share the same vision of doing everything just because of Allah!

of rempit and adventure

the thing about me and my friend were, both of us were unpredictable.. one moment we decide to go somewhere, the next moment  both of us headed somewhere.. so, last thursday our plan  was to go to Rantau Panjang to buy something, i was supposed to play the role as the faithful friend that follow my friend wherever she went, but look like i switched to be the main character the moment she fetched me..  we went to a place first but i'm upset  because  of few reasons, then we procede  to our main mission..   cant believe both of us really 'merempit' to Rantau Panjang   at 4.30pm!  halfway through the journey, we  stopped at a i - dunno-the name-of-the-mosque-but the design resemble a temple...  first time i prayed there although had passed by that mosque several times before.. being a tourist at my own state is something new to me :-@ once arrived, we went to a shop & i went  gaga over 'periuk belanga', 'kuali' & many more!  and i ended up ticking the cooking utensils out of my to-buy list meanwhile my friend came home empty-handed! i admit that it was a 'kerja gila merempit selama sejam ke  rantau panjang & bawak balik  lots of cooking utensils  dengan motor!' but that was the beauty of our friendship- xkisah nak wat benda yg orang lain takkan buat or should i  describe it as adventure? it rained on our way back.. however, looking at the colourful rainbow  over the sky worth it! amazing moment!

roller coaster..

i'd lost word to describe my emotion today.. a fine day in the morning (that's if you consider  compensating sleepless night with  a long 'nap'  in the morning, did the household chores & paying bills  as a fine day).. was informed that one of my relative  passed away this evening.. a tragedy without warning, again!  i know, ' kematian tak boleh dijangka, tapi untuk pergi dalam sekelip mata, hanya selepas sehari ditahan di wad', it's just  too  _________....  bukan tak  pernah alami situasi  begini, tapi kadang2, as human, we need a reminder @ a wake up call... and reality hit me really hard when it come to my own relative... macam tak sangka, tiba-tiba je 'dia' dah tiada.. the first thing that crossed my mind, andai ditakdirkan tak sempat menikmati keberkatan Ramadan, tak siapa boleh lawan takdir dan ketentuan ilahi.. jadi, baki usia yang masih tersisa harus dimanfaatkan sebaik-baiknya.. dunia ini hanya persinggahan sementara  menuju destinasi abadi.. let go of any worldly attachment & face the roaller coaster of our life with faith in God..        http://www.purematrimony.com/blog/2012/01/why-do-people-have-to-leave-each-other/