coincidence

Transit... & coincidentally met a gang of my ex schoolmate! Of all places, i dont expect to see them hanging around next to my table... Bila ditakdirkan pertemuan terjadi... Chance untuk bertemu agak slim tapi still, we had brief conversation... All of them are the remaining group of single women dengan lifestyle lebih kurang my lifestyle - working, sometimes hang around dengan geng kamceng & jika berkesempatan, travel & having vacation/short getaway together... Tapi still, we are happy... X la depressed bila most of our peers get married & having babies... Rezeki masing-masing la...xde partner, bebas enjoy ke hulu & ke hilir walaupun local saje... Entahla, for me age is just a number... Jika kahwin kerana terpaksa, hati xleh terima... Chance untuk nusyuz agak tiggi... jika itu terjadi, apa ertinya sebuah institusi perkahwinan yang sepatutnya dibina demi mencari redha-Nya? Bukan mawaddah & sakinah yang diperolehi, tetapi hati yang tak ikhlas melayari bahtera kehidupan... & the 'kelakar' part : status was determined by ring... Ade cincin bermakna telah dimiliki... Or if single, taking the joke salah sorang dari mereka " kau tu pakai cincin sebab koya lebih"...

the power of ......

Cleaning kuarters before emptying it had taken its toll on me... Had severe flu (thinking of going to hospital for nebuliser but lucky warm water be the temporary remedy) & not fit to drive... Tried to call for rescue but to no avail... All i did was reciting "Rabbi yassir wala tu'assir" & surprisingly, my 'saviour' came to rescue me, unexpectedly... Small effort but the result: powerful...

yesterday, today & tomorrow...

Well, this time i write not because i'm bored... Tapi to commemorate my transition phase .. For the time being, it's a great life... Baru lagi, tapi judging from current lifestyle, i'm sure it's far away better... jika sebelum ini kerap diuji, kali ini ujian yang mendatang adalah nikmat yang berlebihan.. Bila pernah berdepan dengan ujian yang besar, segala ujian berikutnya dirasakan kecik saja... I'm not going to dwell on past, sebab past is past yang tak lagi bermakna... Malah, segalanya dirasakan bagaikan mimpi... Bila terjaga, mimpi itu sudah berakhir & tidak lagi menghantui hidup... Perhaps another term is redha dengan ketentuan/ qada & qadar yang telah terjadi & betul, good or bad, hikmah ujian itu besar... Maybe boleh disamakan dengan training session for a tougher & better life... apepun, hari ini adalah realiti.. Tak kisah la ape yang terjadi sebelum ni, as long as i'm contented with what i have for now, it's ok... Bahagia tu, for me bukan terletak pada kemampuan memiliki segala-galanya, tapi lebih kepada menghargai apa yang terhidang di depan mata...

Part II: Lifestyle

Now i understand why ramai suka pilih tempat kerja dekat dengan rumah... I used to be bored, so my solution is to enjoy with beloved friends... Working overtime is a no-no jika xde geng sekepala... & balik kuarters xde benda nak buat... But now, having 2 houses, i was showered with extra love... Balik sini, sana call.. Balik sana, sini call... tak rasa terkongkong pun... different case time stay alone, nobody care nak balik pukul berapa pun although i rarely keluar malam... & in term of lifestyle, of course living alone hanya concern hidup sendiri saja... Tapi living with families, banyak benda boleh buat bila balik, x kira rumah mane satu... & xde langsung feeling nak keluar enjoy... Although, i still proceed with plan 2-3months ago & lucky our plan memang schedule on public holidays or else, tiket flight burn begitu saja.... sebab masa buat plan memang tak terfikir nak tukar, our intuition untuk buat kerja gila melencong time 2 hari public holiday is right... & guess, xde sape nak bising / jealous/ kecoh/tabur fitnah bila travel sana sini (as long as i tak bankrap at the end of the month, sape kisah?)...

recap of the week

A week & i feel like a community pharmacist except coverage lebih luas.. I dont diagnose(memang tak minat pun diagnose), yet, while dispense, usually the patients open up their stories naturally.. An indirect way to learn about patients' condition & at the same time, assessing their compliance.. & agak menyedihkan bila majoriti tak compliance atau bila ok, cara ambik pulak salah.. Since there's maternal child health, it's a new field that i had to venture & that means, i dont dispense typical cold/flu/cough medicines.. Clinic nowadays dah agak terkedepan berbanding 3-4years ago...The medicines maybe tak canggih sangat, tapi walaupun tak canggih, the good thing is klinik tak kedekut untuk beli 2in1 medicines/combination ie glucovance/obimin.. And, jika yang basic pun compliance/awareness ke laut, what's the point bagi ubat canggih-canggih tapi at the end, patient admitted to ward, perhaps due to hypertensive crisis/heart attack/MI/diabetic ketoacidosis/severe asthmatic attack? Tackling a common disease tapi konsep prevention is better than cure apply! So far, apart from cold/flu/cough/DM/asthma/hypertension/IHD, i meet patient yang foreign animal masuk dalam mata tapi xleh dikeluarkan, mild accident cases & pregnant ladies yang alami dermatitis hanya time pregnant.. So, life tak boring..

change

People say life at clinic is boring... I say it's a calm life... Damai... It's totally a different life... lots to learn & at the same time, it's you who control your own remote... Depending of what type of pharmacist that you want to be - you fix what you want to do... for me, this is the chance to get to know more about patients... I mean, in major hospital, it's impossible to cater all patients... Here, depending on the patient's situation, i could do more... & building rapport with the staffs - that's another way to learn -indirectly.. I mean, the staff nurse here sometimes share their experiences on patient's condition - so far, i learned more about wound, thalassemia, vaccination for babies & many more to come (sikit saje tapi it's better than stuck pada keadaan yang sama)..... of course, for the time being, i dont encounter life threatening situation... But here, as front liners, we do small steps to prevent serious complications / adopting the "prevention is better than cure" concept! That's why i'm brave enough to say that it wasnt the place that matters, it's your intention that determine everything...

game over

I didnt transfer to the end of the world... But still, when you left, there's possibility that u'll never meet the people that you used to see on daily basis, again... like my ex-roomate at A5-2 , the one facing the 'butik pengantin'(before kna halau keluar & then masuk balik), although we worked at the same hospital(maybe used to work), it took almost 2 years for us to reconcile again (i wonder if she transfer somewhere else, but no, she was always there).. I'm still in 'wonderland', 1 month & 10 days is too fast for me (plus the drama, it was shorter than that... Perhaps, if everything is fine & dandy, 1 month is more than enough... I go, because that's what i call as 'fate'... changing routine of 5 years, the first place in my career, maybe it takes time to adapt to the changes... However, working at DIS, i got opportunity to see budding young pharmacist adapt & grow... Some are great! indirectly, i learned something (minus free mandari class =) while screening at satellite - if you ever read this, thanks...) ... Orientation, JKTU meeting - also gave variety to my job scope... I learned lots actually & credit should goes to yang fix penempatan at certain unit... it wasnt in vain... & guess, that's why i'm willing to work hard on my last day... I'm not perfect, tapi i tried to do my best... Not to gain recognition, but that's my way to 'jadikan kerja sebagai ibadah'... Maybe, they are just papers, but that paper sometimes help those patients yang betul-betul perlu... X la dipanggil KPK for no reason... Outside, i'm blessed with wonderful friends... That's why i never take marriage as something that's too serious... I love freedom & my friend boleh tukar role jadi 'kekasih' yang paling memahami anytime, or maybe, transform into the heroin time dalam situasi 'damsel in distress' or whatever role yang perlu... Mestilaaaa sayang nak lepaskan friendship that's so special camni.... in term of work, the job scope is okay ... but again, working at the same place tanpa pergi ke tempat lain, mind jadi tertutup... sebab x nampak senario di tempat lain...